Sean “Diddy” Combs said in a statement on Sunday that he and ex Kim Porter were “more than soulmates” and that he missed her so much and marked her first public comments about her death.
Porter, mother of three of the rapper and producer’s children, was found dead in her home in Los Angeles on Thursday. She was 47 years old. The death will remain under investigation.
“In the last three days I’ve been trying to wake up from this nightmare, but I do not have that,” wrote Diddy on Instagram along with a video of the two posing for a Essence magazine photography.
“I do not know what to do without you baby,” he continued. “I miss you so much. Today I’m going to pay tribute to you, I’ll try to find the words to explain our inexplicable relationship.” We were more than best friends, we were more than our companions.
Plans for the funeral of Port
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Porter and Diddy were together for more than a decade to 2007. They shared a son, Christian 20 and 11-year-old twin daughters, Lila Star and Jessie James . Diddy also helped raise Porter’s son Quincy Brown 27 from her former Relationship with Al B. Sure! .
“I’m broken … & the only thing that makes sense right now is that you were too good for this stupid world we live in,” wrote Brown on Instagram on Sunday in his own first statement about Porter’s death, together with me d a picture of him, his sisters and his mother “I love you so much MOMMY. Please give Mee-Maw the biggest hug and kiss for me.”
Brown’s father celebrated Porter at Instagram on Friday.
Diddy also has a 24-year-old son, Justin and 12-year-old daughter Chance from two previous relationships.
“This may not be true I’m continuing to wake up and hope this is a bad dream.” Justin wrote on his Instagram page on Sunday, along with family photos. “I just do not understand. The other day, we all danced together! My other mom, thank you for loving and accepting me as your own. I will always remember all the special moments and conversations we had together, please be close with us and let’s hear your voice to guide us. @quincy @kingcombs jessie & lilah, i got yall forever! “
After Porter’s death, Diddy united with another former ex Cassie ]].
A source told E! News on Friday that Diddy tried to “calculate the next step for his children” and added: “He is very hearted.”
Porter’s grandmother, Lil Mae Star said that she was talking to her grandchild the day before she died.
“She told me she felt better and that the doctor had been in his house and he gave her an antibiotic,” she told WVTM TV in Columbus, GA.
She said that she was talking to Diddy over the phone after Porter’s death. She said he said, “My love is gone, my love is gone.”